L-O-V-E

 

 

Love is simple.  The heart is what’s complicated. 

Honestly…I was writing about something else.  Then today, HE called.  The first man who literally stole my heart…yanked it right out of reluctant shaky hands.  Ahhhh…to be LOVED!  Well.

Love always requires a response.  So I loved him back….then.  But I don’t anymore.

When he called I did not pick up.  It was not his normal number so the identity was unknown.  Voicemail.  His voice is very different now.  He’s recovering from a SUDDENLY of life.  A hammer that came down hard on his body out of “nowhere”.  I found out about his SUDDENLY from a mutual friend.

 

 

What I’ve learned about love:

1. It IS because God IS literally LOVE.  When it is true, it is infinite…it is expansive, like the galaxies.  That’s why one can truly LOVE more than one person in a lifetime but…
2. IN LOVE is totally different than LOVE.  In LOVE-ness can be annihilated by a host of happenings that affect our FEELINGS toward another.  That’s why if you fall IN LOVE…you can fall out of it. Which is why….
3. TRUE LOVE is not about feelings alone.  It is a decision fueled by LOVE HIMSELF.  It, along with True FRIENDSHIP, is what sustains marriages beyond the passionate sweats..in the years when there’s more talking and laughing than bumpin’ and grindin’.  It is the glue that will not unstick …even if you do.  However…
4. LOVE and being IN LOVE are requirements….for me.

 

 

We had planned to be The soul-mated Mr. and Mrs.  But hearts were broken and we did the Mr. & Mrs. thing with others.  He and I made our peace years ago.  So Friends.  For Life.

When his SUDDENLY happened, I could not find him.  Until I found him.  His brain was affected by the SUDDENLY but as soon as I said my name he managed to say “Wow. Wow. Wowww.” And I heard him smile.  Ahhh…the tears I held that day!

Then I knew for sure, I am NOT IN LOVE with this man anymore AT ALL…but I will always love him and as he told me even days before the SUDDENLY…”I still love you like always…no matter who, what, when, where or how“.   I’ll take that, my friend.  I’ll take it.

 

mai lesson – Love in relationship is an investment of SELF.  Like any investment, there is the potential to “lose it all”…and mai risk tolerance is low.  But I’ve learned that in this game, you can never really lose because TRUE LOVE only evolves…it never disappears.  Selah.