Reflecting. MARCH. Important things always seem to happen in mai life during this month. Is it something about the number 3?
MARCH 1, 2019. Twentieth anniversary at the corporate J-O-B. Obviously I was a mere toddler when I learned to do the straight spine chin up switch down those pale hallways. Young and vibrant…I am Forever 21. (WINK) The other day I was walking down the stairwell from the cafe. A usual routine, yet this felt more like DEJA VU. I’ve been here beforeeeee, in my Teena Marie voice. A Matrix moment.
Reflecting. A WORDS girl seemingly trapped in a NUMBERS world. Over the years, deep depression would stranglehold me. In those moments, I didn’t understand why I had landed in a NUMBERS world when mai WORDS had the ability to make me soar. Yet, today I woke up remembering how excited I felt the day I was hired. Ecstatic. Hopeful. Blessed. I wanted nothing more than to have an official place with this company…because it was and still is a great company. As far as Corporate America goes.
“Now understand. I was a businessman…that became a Pastor. Called to and in the ministry. Yet, I’m called to BOTH still. Pray for direction.”
My Pastor said this to me last week. And put in perspective the WHY? I am a WORDS girl planted in a NUMBERS world because God knew I needed to learn….well, NUMBERS. How much money exists in the world to expand mai vision, how it works to expand mai knowledge all the while stabilizing an unstable life…mine. The Big Picture of mai purpose has NEVER been purely about WORDS. Huh. Who knew?
Reflecting. The past 20 years in this NUMBERS world flew by. And I have been empowered to BECOME more ME during every bump of this rollercoaster ride.
Playwright of nearly a dozen original works. A Film Producer…took a well-supported leave from the NUMBERS world for 3 weeks for the first feature. A Businesswoman and A Confident Leader. A World Traveler….over a dozen countries and counting. A Homeowner times 2. This NUMBERS world has seen me through a marriage and a divorce, the death by MACK truck of my best friend & sister-n-law as well as all of my living grandparents, and the birth of most of mai 11 beloved nieces & nephews….laughter, sorrow, clouds, sun, dreams crushed and renewed….there’s been a lot of living in the last 20. I AM GRATEFUL yet…..
Reflecting. I was walking in the stairwell…the same one that inspired my first screenplay “trapped”….and I knew I was FREE.
“Free yo mind and yo a** will follow.”
mai lesson – Anniversaries are meant for reflection and looking forward to what’s next. Change is inevitable. Are you at a crossroads? What month seems to be YOUR month for MAJOR happenings in your world? Any patterns? Would love to read your thoughts.